Why now I ask?

You haunt me while I sleep; your memory torments me through the day.I thought I left you in my past where you belong.Why now I ask?I do not want to remember you or your ugly ways. You would always belittle me and go off with every stray.Why now I ask? Your ego was bigger than most, your ignorance left you standing alone. I loved you with all that was in me, you took what you wanted and did it so freely.I forgave you when you lied; you hurt me & always left me to cry.Why now I ask?

So much time has passed, not a second thought I have given you.Last night and today your memory has filled my head, but not once will you touch my heart.I will not give you that control of me you held for so long. Today I am new woman with her head held high& strong.You were a significant part of my life at once; all you did was tear me down.My past with you is it where it belongs, I have moved forward and found true love. I do not care if to this day you are still the same as above.

As I lay next to he; who shares his heart, soul & life with me, loves me unconditionally.He will hold me, smile & tell me he loves me even after speaking of my agonizing dreams. I ask “Why now”?He tells me “It’s life’s way of reminding you that is the past and now you have me”….